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The vague entry of boredomness

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 06:07:28 GMT

Your buddy ole pal the Emster is having a bad day.

/understatement

/clincally depressed

Does anybody really get why guys are dicks all the time? I mean, you'd think after three months of 'talking' ( /calopialism for sort-of dating) we'd be going out by now, or at least, at the beginning of the three months, he would have told me he was going to screw around and then finally announce that he liked me, but was afraid to fall in love because, get this, he's JOINING THE NAVY three weeks after school lets out! I know he is for a fact, but, come on (/end shitty excuses, huh?). If he can date other girls in an inserious fasion, he can at least give it a whirl. Especially after telling me he loves me.

Why am I stupid enough to still chase after him like this? I saw a commercial today on TV with this little preteen with a guitar, singing 'Is it just a crush or am I a stalker?'. I LOL'ed but now I'm starting to get it. That's a bad thing.

And then, we come home from school to World War III. Come on, guys, two more years until I'm eighteen, could you wait, please, to drag me into this until after I have the option to move out? For the last time, I'm not taking either fucking side, and the fact that she and I aren't blood related is not going to bias it in either direction.

Dearest stepmother, please let me drive. I would really like to get my liscence.

I found the coolest pictures today. Yes I did.

^ made of win.

Also....

and finally, the epitome of cool.

Advice and my vacation

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 06:24:37 GMT

Okay, the first thing's first. My advice for you guys is this: NEVER be afraid of someone, whether it be talking to someone, meeting someone, telling someone how you feel... because in the end, all they are is people. They're just like you, they have the same insecurities, and that cutie you had your eye on and waited for them to approach you, they probably like you too, and are waiting for you to approach them. And, soon, time runs out and you never got to talk to them. What could it hurt, really. Honestly, the only bad reaction I've ever got from talking to someone I wanted to talk to was a rude comment, and that just let me know they aren't as impressive as I wanted them to be anyway.

Never let the fear of emberassment keep you from meeting someone. Since when do you have too many friends anyway. And you don't need alterior motives, they don't have to be cute, or sad, just... meet someone to meet them, pick out someone random that looks interesting, and just tell them that they looked like someone you wanted to know. Really, it's one less person you hadn't met before God took you from this world, one more person you connected with on even the most remote of levels. If you meet everyone you ever want to without fear of rejection, you'll have such a wide and diverse veriety of acquantances, it'll make your life even more rich and touching than it was before. Every single person helps.

And, the more people you know, the more likely it is good things will happen to you. You never know, the person you decide to approach may end up being your best friend, or the love of your life, or that one contact that gets you into college, or, you could be the one person that helped them. That reached out and took the time to get to know them when everyone else didn't bother to take a moment to say, "Hi, my name's Emily, what's yours! If you're ever on myspace, I'm on there, we can talk some time, it'll be interesting to know what things you like, we might have a lot in common!"

I can see no reason not to!

I went to the mall earlier, it was nice. Anyone I thought I wanted to meet, I went up, shook their hands, and introduced myself. And every single person was amazing, told me their name, and seemed generally glad to meet me (whether or not they'll regret it later is a different story lol).

Anyway, past all the Bhudda-y karma one with the universe stuff, I'll tell ya about my vacation up in the big MD.

It was pretty fun, I got along really well with my brother's girlfriend, managed to buy a webcam, and thanked the lord for getting the hell out of Dickenson County for a couple weeks... even if I do miss home and all my friends.

The time spent away made me really think about them and about the fact that I took the time to get to know a bunch of strangers in a mall, but know almost nothing about the people I spent eight hours in the same building with for the last 3-5 years.

When I get home, the Emster's talking to EVERYBODY.

I've been thinking alot lately about how I judge people, and about how seclusive I am toward people. I like to think I'm one of the last people to do that, and to an extent, I'm better then most, but still, I make a lot of generalizations and talk about people behind their back. Maybe my New Years resolution should be to get to know everybody, for who they are, and accept that.

Another thing I'm going to do is get out more. I live in an amazing place and don't bother to explore it. What, really, would be the harm in walking around the mountain, because I really have nothing better to do... besides sit on a laptop at one in the morning on a myspace blog lol.

Anyway, moving on... I'm tired... and there's a change a'comin, guys. For shizzle. Chuck Norris.

Why I got a Livejournal

Fri, 07 Dec 2007 04:18:12 GMT

Really simple, actually. The answer? I'm a nerd. I use LJ to read fanfiction that I can't find on fanfiction.net, most recently Tin Man, but also for Doctor Who, Scrubs, and Harry Potter. I got tired of not being able to review things, and having to search forever in the day for things I could just find by adding them to my friends. So, yeah, thus, my LiveJournal was born. I could start blogging... we'll see. I get bored and am on the net forever and ever with my virtually no life.